i'm not running away anymore. from now on, it's running to.:) fast&furious! :}

so.. all my promo results are out except c lit. for econs and e lit i missed D and B respectively by 1 mark each. rahh. but at least i've improved :) math.. 2 grades up, but still very disappointing considering it's the subject i spent the most time on and.. argh. 9 out of 15 people got A in my class or sth. :(( i think after failing most of my math tests i've sorta lost confidence in doing well. as in i could do all the practices at home, but when i was doing my paper my mind pretty much went blank cos i was panicking so bad. :S i wont be getting my laptop i guess.. wont go begging my parents for it either because a deal's a deal right? yeah well, cant help feeling a wee bit disappointed.

what have i learnt? start mugging earlier, so i wont have to spot questions. tho i was actually sth like 80% right :P

yup. i'm moving on anyhow. going to work real hard for my 2007 personal goals: 4As and 1 gold. :))
i can, i must and i will.

had a loooooong chat with my mum (and occasionally, my dad) yesternight, we talked and debated over all kinds of stuff. it took a loooong time for me to convince her that i've got my heart set on the 4As and 1 gold. she was pretty adamant on me going for less trainings (think twice a week :X) so that i can free up more time to study, and also so that i wont have to come home so tired i cant focus. she said whether i get a medal next yr or not is not important at all. but i got her to understand i have to do this for myself. if i cant overcome this (juggling canoeing and studies), what can i amount to in the future right? sure, she's trying to prevent me from making mistakes that i'll regret (ie not studying hard enough to get into a good uni, lousy uni = low salary job, etc, etc, slippery slope, yadayada), but how can i ever learn to stand up for myself this way?

yup, that's the gist of it. i dont think anyone wants to hear about how i cried and cried like a baby. haha! tho janell noticed straight away how tired i was, and how swollen my eyelids were this morning. i know she wont read this but thanks for the hug :) you caught me by surprise, i thought i hid it pretty well.

It's a warm summer breeze
It's a weakness in your knees
It's a perfect place above
Full of everlasting love
go to, then; your considerate stone.
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